My heart hurts horribly for my best friend in the whole world who is experiencing what I could never imagine. Lots of back and forth between Mal and I, but not as much chatter as we typically have. I've been trying to support her and tell her I love her and am proud of her. As much as I hate for her that things are like this I hate it even more that I'm so far away from the my very best friend during this situation, I hate that her and her family are having to deal with this situation but I can't say it any better than Mr Glenn said. We don't get to write the pages in the book that God writes only get to be apart of it.
By the time you are reading this, I'll be in Florida after what feels like the longest week ever. I've hated being apart from Mallary in this situation. What you probably don't know is that it's not so much the surgery that is throwing me off but the struggling Mallary is dealing with as she encourages her mom to keep fighting and my inability to help (or as it feels) from 662 miles away. The support I've felt from friends and faculty at school has allowed me to continue to bring optimism to Mallary and her family. Believe it or not, playing catch and listening to some relaxing music really can help. I can't thank those who have surrounded me for the past few days (you know who you are) enough for their overwhelming support and well wishes. I now fall to my knees and ask for you to pray for my strength as I face a situation I've never faced before and to continuously bring an optimistic attitude and spirit to my best friend.
As hurt as I feel by this situation I'm angry. Really angry for Mallary and at God for doing this. (people don't say this I know!!) I'm mad because I don't understand why Mrs Angela is suffering and why this situation is happening as it is. I'm mad that my best friend feels like this and He's just letting it happen... Or that's what it feels like... I know that you should lean in to God in these situations and I'll admit to you that I'm struggling. I've fought a lot of tears this week and that's something I haven't shared a lot with Mallary. Sometimes we all struggle to keep composure, but my ability to stand by her in this situation trying to lift her up has amplified the strength of our friendship times 10.
I have a long weekend ahead of me. I'll be around exactly what Mallary has been through all week. The rough moments have been abundant but the feeling of relief I'll get to be supporting my best friend will be worth every second. I know she's overwhelmed by the support she's received, the magnitude of your prayer is silencing. Do not stop now.
I've recently been enlightened to the idea that we all need somebody. Whether it's someone to talk to, someone to cry to, someone to laugh with, we all need someone. I ask for you support as I carry this message to Florida with me and get to be a somebody to Mal and her family. As I finish this post, I can't help but ask for your prayers. Prayers for strength as I try to support the one who I care about so much. I ask for your prayers as the Goad's prepare to run a marathon that requires their patience and that Mallary finds peace in the fact that her mom is fighting and has to let that happen. Please continue to pray, the great Creator of the universe is listening.
Sending love from Florida.
Always,
AK
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